I have some of the most incredible friends in the world. Some I know personally, and some I only know online. But if I consider them a friend, there is a reason for it.
See, I'm a little weird about friendships. I know if someone is going to become a true friend the moment that I meet them or first talk to them. We click. Instantly. THOSE people are the ones that I consider my friends.
I can talk to someone every day for a year, hang out with them, etc and never consider them a friend. They are simply an acquaintance. Someone to shoot the shit with, hang out with, combat the boredom with. I'll talk to them about their lives, my life, etc. But I never let them get truly close.
I guess the point that I truly consider someone a friend is when I am freaking out, having an emergency, etc and I know that no matter what time it is, I can call them and they will be there for me.
I don't have a female my best. My one and only best friend is my husband. I know a lot of people say that, but I truly mean it.
My one and only true friend here just moved away. And that sucks. But in all honesty, I know I'll be ok. Because even though my next closest friend is over 10 hours away, and the others between 12 hours or hell, an ocean away, I know that I'm fine.
It's nights like tonight, when my friend called me from England and we spent 3 hours on the phone just shooting the shit that make everything perfectly ok. When we're laughing, and catching up, and dealing with all the drama that's happened in our lives. When we're hanging onto the phones for dear life, because we miss that connection more than anything. THOSE are the best moments.
Those are the ones that let me know that even if no one here likes my bat shit crazy, I'm not alone.
When I'm upset, I don't call anyone here. I call Holli in Indiana, or Amber in Florida. Or I get on Facebook or Twitter and reach out to my numerous friends around the world.
Because my true friends know just what a crazy bitch I am. They know I'm offensive and rude. They know I'm blunt, honest, and that I talk entirely too much. But they love me for me. They know that I have a heart of gold and that I'll give the shirt off my back if someone needs it. They set boundaries for me when I'm being too giving to someone that is using me. And boy oh boy do I know when one of them is mad at me! lol
But that's the thing about true friends, you can always be honest. Even if you fight, you know you're going to be ok. I have friends of different religions, different morales, different ethics, everything. But the one thing we all have in common is that we will call each other out on our bullshit. And we'll get over it. We respect each other's lives. We don't try to shape them, or change them. We love each other just the way we are, quirks and all.
So yeah, it's a little lonely here at times. But, I'm going to be just fine. Because I have some of the most incredible friends a girl could ever ask for. And that.... Well... that's better than gold.
